Wednesday, May 16, 2007

i <3 australia

I'm comfortable here. So comfortable, I constantly say that I could stay here forever and never go home. I don't know what it is about this place. If it's Sydney that I love or everything about the country. Or maybe it's just the fact that I'm so carefree. My roommate pointed it out that she's never seen me stress over anything since I've been here. And she's right. There's only 4 1/2 months here on the opposite side of the world... why waste any time not being happy and enjoying myself? I've learned to put things into perspective and decide if something is worth my time to ruin my fun and so far, nothing has. I guess one of the reasons why I'm so content with staying here is for that main reason. Never have I been so carefree and not stress over something for this long of a time. Yea I know its only been 3 months but I guess this past year for me was such a rollercoaster ride. I originally came to Australia just to have a good time, because I love traveling, and because I love doing big things. But the couple months prior to leaving, I had many more reasons and I just wanted to get the fuck away from everything. I am a firm believer that time heals everything so I guess subconciously, I was hoping that everything would be ok when I come back half a year later. And it will. Because again, being here has made me realize so much. It's made me realize how lucky I am to even have such an amazing opportunity like this. It's also made me learn so much about life and mostly, myself. I know you grow as a person constantly and learn new things about yourself throughout your whole life but in the past 2 months, I've grown so much as a person, I can barely remember the person I was when I first came here. It's like freshman year of college, times a gazillion.

There is roughly 6 weeks left and it's so scary. The past 3 months have flown by so fast, I can't even fathom how fast 6 weeks will go. Everytime I think about it, I wanna cry already. The last week here is going to be rediculous. Even though I hang out with a lot of Northeastern kids and people who don't live so far away from New York, it's going to be sad to leave this place. I've met such amazing people here and I am very thankful for that. It kinda makes me glad that I've gotten close to Americans and not Australians, because there's a greater chance that I'd get to see them again when I'm home. We already talk about having reunions and people coming up to Boston to visit us and frankly, I believe that it's actually going to happen. You know how there are people you meet that you know you'll never see them again and you're fine with it? For some reason, I am very confident that we'll keep in touch and meet up again, someday, with everyone I'm friends with here. I think both sides would make a huge effort to do so.

I'm not even sure what I'm talking about anymore or what the moral of the story was. I wanted to save an entry like this until the end, but maybe there won't be an end anymore. Maybe I will just stay here forever. Or until I'm ready to come back. Because right now, I'm so not ready or willing. I feel like there's so much more to do and see and feel. I've already contemplated throwing away all my career goals and just taking life as it comes. But that might be naive as well. O well. I guess I have to come back....I've already signed that damn lease. Boo. Haha.

I'm going to make the next 6 weeks the best time of my life. But that won't be hard because the past 3 months have already been that.

1 comment:

Vy said...

when you come back, many of the things may be the same, some of it you'll love and others you might hate but its the things you learn along the way, even from some place far away, that makes your life worth living.

we all miss you here but definitely enjoy your time there as much as you can because like you said, not many people get these kinds of opportunities. take with you everything you can, let life take you where the wind blows and come back bigger and better!

muah! love youuu!